As scrum-diddli-umpscious as Tanky is - and he IS just that, he is also many other things.....such as
Constantly wakeful (or whatever the terminology is for 'never sleeps!')
He's a baby, right? That's what I've been telling myself since he was born. Even when other babies his age starting sleeping for length at night, or other babies started their solids at around 6 months of age or even the simple beauty of watching other babies feed from their mums while laying comfortably across mums lap.
Tanky has his own way of doing all these things. I knew he was a complete individual in hospital when I saw other mums pushing their babies around in their little plastic cribs. Those cribs are great. Mums can nap and eat for example while they have their hands free. Not me though, my hands were not free. I had to ask midwives to hold him so I could grab a quick bite to eat between feeds! If I put him down, he cried for me to cuddle him. I cuddled him in bed each night so I could get pockets of sleep.
Hahaha, he is so naughty that its cute! I wouldn't change him for the world and I'm so blessed and privileged to have him as my beautiful chubby boy. But I am also very tired.
Mum has been ringing each week and checking in on me. She knows that there is way more for me to do now with Lani and her monitoring. She knows how cheeky Tanky is and how he doesn't let me sleep much at nights. She also knows things in my personal life have been rough lately. She offered many times to come over and help but I reassured her that I was fine. I knew it would eventually pass, I thought that soon Tanky would start to sleep. But it still hasn't passed and I still haven't slept ;) I am learning that there is only so much I can do. I am learning I have limits!
I kept telling mum 'I'm fine, I'm fine."
And then one day I wasn't fine.
Mum came over as soon as she could and is here to help for 6 weeks.
I have the best mum ever!!
I also hope the six weeks go by very very slowly :)
Mum is staying with the Rogers as they have more room for her. She comes to our house to help out on the afternoons and evenings when Job is not around. Its great having her around during dinner time. With her help, I am finally able to get something ready for dinner (instead of the usual cereal nights) and get the kids off to bed at a reasonable hour. She helps me with the housework and spends time with the kids, but what I love the most is having another pair of (strong) arms to hold the Tank. I love watching her get to know him and his quirky little personality. He makes her laugh too. He is such a funny boy.
He loves to smootch
He loves to cuddle (and chew on necklaces)
He loves to stare at you if he thinks you are eating something that he isn't
He loves to be held and fed
And he loves to cry for his mummy
Just like I cried for mine!